Becoming the Mommy God has for me to be.

Wow! This mommy stuff is amazing, confusing, fun, frustrating, exciting, tiring, enjoyable, humbling, and so much more. I love to watch them have personal time with me and daddy. It's been amazing to watch us grow as a family and learn each others patterns and difficulties. It's confusing when you think you have figured your baby out and then they switch. It's fun to see them make faces and enjoying my milk more and more. It's frustrating when we still have to formula feed because my milk hasn't come in totally yet. It's exciting to be parents. It's tiring when you just get done pumping and another round is ready to go again. Seriously? It's enjoyable to watch others just love on your children. It's humbling knowing God is allowing you to teach these kids life lessons and patients.
I am amazed by these two angels. I love them and wouldn't have it any other way. My sweet family is finally here. I love being a mom! WOW!

Miracle on Looman Street

June 19th 2010 will be forever remembered as the day Scott and Tina Nickel welcomed Jackson Thomas and Rylee Grace into this world. I can tell you it feels so good to know they are here, finally!! It's such a joy to see their little faces and know they look like they belong to us. Whether they have the Schremmer round face, the Nickel nose, Stall chin, and Twyford feet they are family! They are ours and we love them!!!
The miracle is they are ours with a lot of prayer, love, patients, seeking God, trusting, hoping, knowing he answers. We are still in awe of everything. After so many years of hoping they would come they are here to hold, kiss and laugh with.

Scott is great and has a natural loving spirit. He has been so fun to watch. I am hanging in there as a new mommy. Trying to breast feed, hormones, pain from the surgery; it's been a stretch for me. We are very tired and it makes for long nights when I am not producing much milk right now. We are praying we can supply them with what they need without having to do formula. Not that we are against it just want the very best for our children. So I am attached to a pump! Which, I swear is saying "get lost" as it makes noise in my ear! :)
We have had great help from mom and david plus scott's mom as well. So we are singing praises we have such great support. Our sunday school class and bible study groups are helping supply us with dinners hopefully through Sept. That's awesome in it's self.
Enough talk..... time to post pics.

The Time has come! Two more days and our new Titles will be "MOM and DAD"

It's Thursday Night, two days before our little angles are born. I went for my last swim of the summer and took my mom shopping to show her what we normally get at the store. I organized my maternity clothes and got rid of all the winter clothes a friend of mine gave me to give back to her. Scott has been cleaning for the past two days and working on three rooms a day. He cleaned all the Windows inside and out! He has been going full speed for about a week now. I hope he doesn't crash soon. But it's his way of getting ready for the babies. I love this man.

I have gained so much weight it's hard to even stand for very long. Praying the surgery and everything will bring some relief so I can care for the babies. Anxious is a word to describe my feelings. I know it's not about me and my worry for our children is so strong. I just want them to be healthy and have a good start in life.

We have everything ready. Tomorrow I learn about the breast pump in more detail. I am a little concerned because I haven't had a lot of advice about twins. I need to be calling one of my twins friends tomorrow just to touch base with her. I pray I can breast feed these babies. I pray they are good suckers and I am a good supplier. I love them soooo much! My friend Karen who has breast feed three babies is coming over to show me how it works and what all I need to do. PTL.

In two days, my babies will be taking their first breathes, seeing us, eating, letting us kiss them and sleeping. Maybe even crying a bit. I have been waiting for this day for so long and I am getting blessed with two babies. Amazing! God is so good to me. I just think about it His Grace and Mercies. How blessed I am to be taking these steps through life and getting to experience His love in a deeper way. They say no one can love you more or you love more then your own child. Having them in the womb and calling them by name is so amazing. To watch them move and communicate this way. I can't imagine how I am going to feel once they are here!!! WOW!

If I cry for joy for days please forgive me but it just makes me so happy to be given this opportunity to bring them in this world. I love you sweet babies. I will love you forever!

Any day now but very soon!

36 weeks today and it seems like time flew by right before our eyes. Even though there are days that drag on and on. Mostly, I just want it not to feel like ground hog day. Things I look forward to; is going up and down stair without holding on to the railings, walking to the mail box is not my daily exercise, drinking water and peeing every hour won't be a constant, putting baby powder away and not having to keep my self from sweating to death, wearing my shoes again, being able to open bottles and containers again without help, looking down at my feet and seeing those beauties not swollen and being able to touch them, sleeping with my hubby again, having energy to do things and not getting out of breath.

The other things I am so looking forward to is feeding my babies, cleaning them, kissing, hugging, holding, rocking, laughing, crying, worrying and smiling. What a wonderful feeling of knowing they are finally here.

I have felt bad about posting so much about the pregnancy with so many of our friends still waiting for this moment. But I realize I can't disregard the joy of letting my kiddos know how much we are so excited about them coming. I am 37 years old and have waiting children for ten years. I my first marriage after a year he said he never wanted children. I couldn't believe it. I had waiting to get married until I was 28 the first time. I thought I was old at 28 to be having children. Now at 37 I know I am old.... :) But I also know how God hears our prayers. I got remarried to a man who loves children and wants to have them with me. Who is going to be an amazing father. We were not only blessed with one but two. We were not only blessed with a boy but a girl as well.

When I was talking with a friend the other day feeling sorry for my pregnant self she said "Well you do have an amazing story." What? Had I forgotten all God had done. Was I more concerned with my feet and weight and all the terrible misery that comes with pregnancy that I forgot what an amazing God I have? Did I become a Thomas and doubt what the Lord said he would do. He keeps his promises and he knows our hearts. He knows some of us need more time or proof of his miracles. I guess I am one of those people who needs reminded it's okay to be joyful and hopeful for others. I want my kids to have this record of my love for them. I want them to know I have been waiting and learning. Hoping and trusting!!! Now, they are finally on their last days in the womb. Coming to live with Scott and I. What an amazing victory and song! I am so excited for them to get here...

We are so blessed even after two years of marriage hoping and waiting. You both are soon to be here. I feel your touch, I know your movements! I will never be as close to you both as I am now. But I will know you better once you are out! The love story began when I married Scott and it's just growing with time. I love you sweet girl and boy!

JUNE!!! We made it to June!

PTL PTL.... Well the last four days have been a little tricky and frustrating. But I think we might have had a solution. I went to Labor and Delivery on Monday Night because I had four days of electrifying headaches. Most lasted just a few seconds but some lasted a minute to a minute and a half. It was so painful and in the same area it caused me major concern. Even though my BP was fine, it was like the scare of these headaches just made it worse. The Doctor at the L and D said my heart rate was alittle high so they gave me a liter of fluid and told me to take all these different drugs when I got home. So we did everything he said after three hours in the L and D. The next morning I had five episodes before 1:20. I was worried and called my OB.. They finally called back and told me to go back to the L and D. GREAT!!!! :( I called a friend and she came and got me with her three kiddos.. I felt so bad but she is so great! She was like a true advocate for what I was going through and asked great questions. This time my Doctor at the L and D was great! She had a student with her and that was a little odd when she asked questions but everybody needs to learn. Dr. checked my blood, urine and every thing came out great. Babies looked great and had perfect little heart rates. They gave me some oxygen and was hoping it would help. It made me feel fine but after being there three hours without my afternoon nap, I was tired.
Scott finally got off work and came up to the hospital. He had to work a double shift yesterday. Poor guy. He was great and I so appreciate him. He made me laugh too much and the babies moved off the monitors. He got in trouble... it was kinda funny. They sent us home with a prescription of Fiociet. It's got Tylenol and Caffine and something else in it. I took it last night because I was having episodes. Needless to say with caffine as part of the ingredient I was wide awake at 12:30-3:30 decided not to take the every four hours, had another episode and so I took some at 3:45. Slept from 4:00 to 7 a.m. got hungry and now I feel like a nap at 10:00. LOL.
The babies were very active last night too, moving and rolling. It was a little insane. I couldn't breathe in any position. Even got on all fours to try to breath with ease.
But we made it through the night and I think I can make it to the end. That is the goal now.. I mean if we made it this far, why not go for it! What's two and a half more weeks, right?

The rest of the week, I get to watch softball. It's the College World Series and I am so on it!!! It will help the time pas by for sure. I usually go down to Oklahoma and watch but this year I am going to have to watch it on TV. I kinda like Hawaii because they have set HR record of 152 home runs this season. Pretty amazing if they aren't cheating. Some of their swings look a little suspicion but most look legit.

34 weeks 5 days and I have a photo shoot for a chiropractic practice. They want to show how they can help pregnant woman too! John Wheeler is a great friend of ours and has helped us in so many ways. So I get to go up there today and show off my twin belly and be on the brochure. I guess I need to have fun with the fact I am so large at this point. Who knew I would be a model for Plus Sizes someday! Good times.

May was Waiting and Praying

May was filled with Showers for the babies, watching softball games, going fishing, visits to the OBGYN and praying we make it to June. I am 33 weeks right now and in pain most of the time. I have gained 54 lbs. and I still might have a month to go!!! :)

The showers were great!! Amy, Wendy and Steph threw a shower for me and around 50 people came bearing gifts. It was a great day of opening gifts and being shocked by everyone's loving touches with their gifts. Scott's mom (since she is a home eck teacher) made two adorable outfits for our little boy and girl. We got so many cute clothes and onsies.
Our family shower was awesome too! Mom threw it at her house and most of Scott's family came to the shower. My grandma, aunt and uncle tywford and my cousin Wendy/Emily came too! It was so great to have so many there. Huck even sent a card for my special day. We were very blessed with diapers, car seats, high chairs, jeep stroller and tons of cute clothes.

Since I had to quit coaching didn't mean I couldn't go to most of the home games. I watched most of Collegiates games and also got to go to a couple of Heights games too!! I was very proud of both teams they both made it past the first game of regionals but neither made it to State. Maybe next year! Shockwave will get started without me this summer. We got a new coach to come in and take over. I am praying it's a good transition.

Two times this May we have gone out fishing. I was beginning to think I was not good at fishing while pregnant but I think it was the time of day we were going. We started going after dinner and that made all the difference. Those two times I have caught about 24 fish... mostly cat fish. It's been a fun relaxing way for me to do something outside the house were I don't have to move much. Scott's Farm has a creek which dammed up so we have a really great fishing hole this summer. Funny story time, So I got my hook caught on a root. Scott and Phil our hero's were holding each other for Scott to try and save the hook and lure. Phil was screaming at Scott because Phil was trying to hold on to him and his girlfriend Janel was very nervous. Me, finding all of it very humorous if Scott fell in the water with Phil. I grabbed my camera. I had a little stool I was sitting on. While I went back to my stool sitting down to take the picture and video tape the event. The leg of the stool drove deep into the ground because it was quite muddy and I am huge at this point. I slowly descend towards the ground screaming and laughing. There I was laying on the ground, in the mud, laughing. Janel couldn't help me because she was worried about the boys and I was about to pee my pants laughing. Needless to say, no one fell except me. I guess the joke was on me. Oh what fun it is to be pregnant.

At our last visit to the doctor everything seems to be going really well. There are no concerns and the babies are growing, plus so am I. I am measuring 40 weeks at 33. So, now I am getting people saying "When are you due?" " Oh you poor thing, look at those ankles" "Adorable, you are just adorable" Are you hanging in there?" The babies are moving all the time. There really isn't much down time of movement. Which, when they are moving its a bit painful and then there are B. Hicks contractions. I really don't know what I am looking for as to when I am contracting and when I am not. But any day now. We are scheduled to do a C-Section and I am worried about recovery but I know God is with us. We have lots of help and I pray we can do this.

We are getting lots of advice now but the best thing for me right now has been the Having Twins and more Books. It is finally answering the big questions that singleton mom's don't have a clue about. So I am doing my best to figure out the way to raise these amazing blessings. God is so good to us. I am so happy to share this time with Scott and watch how much love can pour out of my husband and I for these two children of ours. Even though it's going to be hard and I am not going to perfect at it. They will be blessed to have a Mom and a Dad who love them soooo much. We are both so excited for this moment. We are praying for many things specifically. You can pray with us.

Pray for Scott to be there for delivery.
The Babies come out healthy and well developed. Not have to spend time in NICU.
Pray for Tina's recovery and health during and after delivery.
Pray the weeks we have them to ourselves we can bond closely.
Pray Tina can breast feed her children and help them develop for many months.
Pray for our safety and witness to others.

Thanks.. Much Love!! I might be a mom next time I get on here!!!! :))))))

Coming on 30 weeks

So much has been going on and yet I feel like time has stopped too! I am getting much bigger. I am excited about having my baby shower this Sunday. Some have dropped off gift or given to us at church. There is such excitement in the air. We finally knocked some names off the list. We have five boy names and six girl names left.
This week is my final week at work. I am so glad because I can focus on the babies and getting prepared. I want to have charts, bags packed, clothes ready and all that fun stuff. Read more about how to take care of these munchkins. Just sit and sing to them is something I am looking forward to.
Scott's working hard at work trying to get more sales to get his income up a little. We are trying to watch what we spend on going out. It's so hard because I soooo don't feel like cooking.
Grandma T got me some summer dresses to wear around the house and sleep in. I love them. Since I really can't keep pants up and over this huge belly. LOL.
Babies are rolling around in there.. Now feeling elbows and legs. Even a head. ahghagh.. Scott got a little weirded out by feeling our boy move around. It was kinda cute. Hands are getting worse. Not really enjoying waking up at night because I can't close my hands. Other then that just hungry all the time. Praying for four more weeks or eight. Just as long as they are happy and healthy.
We had a doctor appointment and I am pretty sure we have settled on the idea of a C-section. I have had some vision problems and don't want to put too much pressure on my head trying to push the babies out from a head injury I had as a kid. The doctor said this is not an issue for him and so far we are looking forward to getting to the Hospital.

Recently a friend of mine, her sister had a baby two weeks ago and soon after had a stroke. Then she had another stroke in the hospital. She is doing better but wow.. that just scares me. The pressure your body goes through with having babies. My body is so wacked with having two in here. If I sit too long movement isn't going to happen very quickly. MY phone rings several times now before I can get to it.
So more writing after the shower and going to watch Sarah Palin. Scott surprised me with tickets to go see her here in Wichita. I am really excited.

28 weeks

So here we are... It has been a crazy ride. We are very excited about our babies. What we have experienced has been all emotions for sure. This past week I had to give up coaching because I get too worked up. I had a bad night of no sleep and menstrual cramping. It was a little scary to say the least. Called the Dr. and they told me to take Tylenol and Benedral. I did and got a few hours of sleep. The next I called the DR. again because I still didn't feel real good. He checked me out and said everything was fine. I took a deep breath of relief but then he told me I needed to slow way down. I shouldn't take a chance with these kiddos. OH OKAY! So the month and a half I spent with my sweet high school girls is over. I will miss them really bad. I was so enjoying working with them.
I went to one of their games here in town and it was so awesome to see them win and achieve some things they had really worked on. It was nice to hear I was missed very much!
Still sleeping in the recliner. Getting bigger and running out of clothes to wear that my belly doesn't stick out underneath! LOL... My gums are bleeding sometimes when I eat due to a tumor growing in my mouth . They say it's nothing to worry about unless it gets bigger. A little embarrassed when it happened in front of my brother and sister in law at lunch and I watch as my sister in law shrikes in horror of me talking with blood coming out. Oh well. Also my hands are still numb to the touch but I am living with it. ON a good note, Little Jr. Scott is kicking a ton now... moving and hiccuping. It's soooo cool. Little missy... just kicks everyonce in awhile. Make me nervous. But it's because her placenta is opposite of his and I can't feel her as much... sad.. but on Tuesday we will see how she is doing too! Still working on names.

Scott and I are trying to do all we can before the kids come. Now we are thinking of painting our fence. We want everything to look nice for the kids. It's exciting!!! We went fishing, to a hockey game, cosmosphere and are now spending time in our yard swinging. Dreaming of the future.
We are praying the kids stay inside me for at least 6 to 10 more weeks. So many things happening all at once. Birthday's Anniversary's, my Brother coming to town, showers and on and on.... all I can think of is being a mom and how much I want to do the best job I can.

So this week I was reminded these are God's Children and He is allowing us to raise them. Still a little shocked by that revelation. He wants us to raise them??? Okay... Also reminded of how faithful God is remembering us and allowing us the blessings this life gives through our friendships and soon our children.

Movement towards Trusting HIM

So, the joy of the Lord is my strength! The JOY of the Lord is my strength. The joy of the LORD is my strength. "Scott could you help me out of this chair, please?" LOL. I am gonna make it! This week is a tough week because it's work in the mornings, work in the afternoon, and two work nights. After this week and after one more month, I will finally rest a little more. My goal is make it to May.
Softball is starting and we are going to be go go go going. I sit on a bucket most of practice. It's the best thing for me to do. I feel like I am helping the girls understand the reasons they do things and helping them get over their fear of diving. The I go home and I have fears. Hmmmm. I tell them you can do it! They try and don't succeed and I tell them but at least you tried and you didn't get hurt. They look at me with pride and a little more courage then the last time they tried. Each day getting better and being more confident. But softball doesn't always teach you life lessons.
Can I relate it to pregnancy? I guess I can. We are thirteen weeks away from this moment. I am so excited to be a mom. But what if??? and how can I ??? how much??? But God says in Matthew 6. Don't worry about tomorrow for tomorrow has worries of it's own. Each day has troubles. "But God I am running out of clothes that fit and I am getting huge" Don't worry about what you will wear. So I trust in what he says and I dive in with my big o'belly to catch what he is trying to tell me. Maybe I am not doing stuff so well right now but I am trying. Trying to trust in him and trying to focus on what His plan is for these beautiful children.
Right now it's been hard because so many of my friends are trying to have children and can't. Or have had miscarriages. So my big body is just a reminder to them they aren't where I am. It's tough to relate to people who don't understand how happy you are but at the same time, how miserable you feel. Your body is changing so rapidly and you are happy but sad at the same time. It's a roller coaster of emotion. It's like being in junior high and your body is not changing as quickly as everyone elses and you feel left out or different. Oh God ... the Joy of the Lord is my Strength. Well, at least with tears flowing down my checks, I feel a bit of relief even if I don't have girlfriends to understand. I have HIM! He understands what it's like to be in a body in which, there are so many emotions he had never felt before. He understands the most important thing is to bring LIFE. To bring it abundantly! Thanks Lord for allowing me to feel, to hurt, to be joyous, to be overwhelmed, to feel unworthy and yet to feel so loved!

24 weeks and counting

So here I am thinking about when I will finally get to hold these sweet little babies! We are down to eight names for each which is pretty good. I am still stuck on just a few names for the boy and a few names for the girl but Scott insist to take one off a week until we come up with two for each baby.
I am feeling them all the time. I thought I was only feeling the boy and my mind was assuming this little boy was a wiggle worm but I later found out after the 3D of them, they are both very active and moving around alot. We didn't get very good 3D pictures of them but that's okay. It makes it a surprise when we do see them.
So I reread my pregnancy blog from last time and I make it sound like I am soooo okay with everything happening to my body. When in fact, I am really struggling being overweight and feet swelling all the time. I am trying to keep a good attitude but it's hard. I can't feel my left hand and fingers most of the time. Now I am wearing a belly belt when I stand for a long time, wrist braces for when I sleep and work (both are not easy) and I bought new shoes. All of which have helped a ton. But I broke down this past week and just felt like it just really sucks to have all these symptoms. I so don't want to complain because I am soooo happy to finally be going through all of this but when your maternity clothes don't fit you even, that is when it's just a little much.
So the good things are my blood pressure is great, the baby's are active and their heartrates were 160 and 145. Which is wonderful. I am sleeping mostly through the night in a recliner.
The tough stuff is having tingling sensation in my hands 24-7 and feet swelling, not being able to sleep with hubby in my bed (too painful on my joints) and clothes not fitting. Funny story time!
So we walk into Verizon to check out a phone discount. I just threw on some clothes not even thinking what I looked like. Ah yeah. Light blue shorts with pink shirt and a navy blue jacket with yellow writing. I totally didn't match and ran into a high school friend there. Good times.

12 % of twins come at 35 weeks which puts us at the end of May if this happens. Wow! So at the least 2 more months at the most 3. So I am totally excited this is just around the corner. I think of our quiet house and how it won't be for long. Scott is getting more and more excited about being a father. We watch movies about dad's having a family and he leans over and kisses me. It's such a great feeling to be able to be a provider of life for my husband. I can't tell you how special I feel about bring him two children into our lives. WOW! its amazing. I watch my nephews video's and I am in such amazement that we too get to experience all the sounds and songs with our little ones too! I guess 2 to 3 months doesn't seems like too tough when it will soon be a different stage. I am praying I am able breast feed my babies for as long as they need it. It's my top priority for now. Please pray with me in this because I want to be able to supply my babies with the very best I can. I was going to post 3D pics but Scott took the camera for his MAN DAY! By the way, it snowed 8 inches and he is driving to OKC today... please pray for him. Then they are shooting guns all day. Pray he stays safe! The things men will do for all you can eat steak and shooting guns.
These pics are from my friends Wedding last weekend. Scott looks pretty excited ah?? Well, he is and I am with all my buddies at the wedding. Everyone thinks I look small for carrying twins but I feel huge!! lol... Take care!

What is Pregnancy to ME?

If you were to have told me all the wonderful things about pregnancy before I got pregnant, I would have believed you. I truly knew nothing about it! But it seems once you have gone through something, you become the EXPERT! lol...
So let me recap somethings I have been experiencing these last five months of being pregnant. Now the first two months, I really wasn't sure I was prego because I didn't have many symptoms but just being really hungry.
The third month came with a punch! I was nauseated, gaining weight! I grew out of most of my jeans and had to wear a maternity cover over my jeans. I hadn't colored my hair because they say it's not good to do that your first trimester. We found out we were having twins but we were not sure of the sexes yet. I thought they were a boy and girl but we had no idea. I receive tons of maternity clothes and advice (By the way most of the maternity clothes were way to big at that point). Our family went on a ski trip but I stayed in the cabin because just walking down to the ski lodge wore me out! Scott and I started going on walks in the mall for exercise.
Fourth month I am over the nauseated sate and now have tremendous pelvic pain and all of my joints start spreading. Like I am Gumby. My feet start getting wide and now my boobs have exploded into their own factory of " MILK SUPPLY". I grew two sizes and have had to by two new bras. I go to the chiropractor twice a week and get adjusted because my back was hurting all the time. I bought a belly belt to help with the pain. Totally a must if you are having twins. I was going to the bathroom 3 to 4 times a night. Not getting much sleep, I decided to try sleeping in the recliner. Yes!! This was a must! I started working a part time job at an embroidery store for sports gear. Great job for me in the mornings. Now, my feet and hands have been swelling in the evenings. Scott and I are still walking me through the malls and stores to get exercise and it helps my swelling, plus I drink a ton of water!!!!!. Scott also has a bath for me in the evenings when I return from working a softball camp. (Don't worry it's only a warm bath.)
My fifth month started out with a great visit to the OB Dr. and sono gal and she said the babies were measuring the same and their heart rates were excellent. We found out they are for sure a boy and a girl. We were shown their hearts, brains, bones and stomachs. We are overjoyed to have this be our little blessings from God. We have prepared the nursery and things seem to being going well. I am finally feeling them inside me and right now it just feels like flutters. Scott has yet to feel anything, poor guy! Scott has developed symptoms of pregnancy as well. We eat ice cream together and he talks about all his symptoms all the time. I guess it makes him feel apart of this whole process and it makes me laugh.
Even though it has been a crazy ride. I am looking forward to the rest of this amazing time with my babies. I can't tell you how much I already love them. I feel so blessed to be carrying two little children in my belly. It's amazing how the body works. What fears you have to overcome and the amount of work your body puts out to allow these beautiful children to develop. I have gained quite a bit of weight but everyone has been amazing to me with compliments. Even though my feet hurt from the weight and I can't run anymore, I know this is for a short time. I have read so many books on babies and pregnancy, I know I could have a degree in it by now. As I type numbness in my fingers comes and goes and I know this must be what I read about last night. Pregnancy makes you feel like you are the giver of life but also something beyond yourself. It has to be God. He made an amazing thing when we created woman. How she is a supplier of life and giver of peace. I pray I can be a good mother and enjoy my children now and forever! What an amazing blessing!

My Blog suffers because of Facebook

Wow! I know, I think I might have left you guys out in the dark a bit with things going on!!! January was a blur. We were expecting our first child into the family, Mya. But this was not God's plan. The birth mother changed her mind three weeks before the baby was due! It was a terrible shock to our system because we were gearing up for three babies. Sadness was apart of our month and we then were struck by what does God have planned for us now.
After two weeks of tears and prayer we went to see about our twins. We wanted to know so badly with they were boys, girls or boy and girl. We were hoping for boy and girl because we were so looking forward to a little girl. But we really wanted a boy. As we went to the doctor he wasn't going to do an ultra sound this time. We were down about the news and told him about the adoption not going through. He thought for a moment and then said, "let's see if the room is open and we can go find out!" He let us peek early and we discover a boy and a girl. Oh, my heart skipped a beat that day. I remember feeling overwhelmed with joy. We waited to visit with our friends who were coming to the same doctor and told them the great news. It was a great day for us and we wanted to share how amazing God is to us. I mean he should of course get some abundant praise!!
So we divided the room up half our girl's side and the other half the boy side. It's so cute and fun. We are so excited to have them arrive in June or early July.
First image is our boy and the second is our girl. I already love them soooo much. It's crazy to think we waited so long and now it seems it's so close to being here, am I ready???
Sorry for being forever missing in this blog world. I promise to do better with this blog. Thanks for those who read it and for those who are struggling with the same thing. Remember God is with you and in time He will answer you! Just keep on serving Him and look for ways to Glorify Him in other ways.

Two New Additions plus one

Scott and I are so excited to share what God has done in our life. We are so amazed at His love and faithfulness. We have been trying to have children for about two years now and it seems more like four. But as time went on it became clear we needed to seek Him and seek extra help. We started on a fertility drug called clomid and then we had to get off it because we took our first trip together as leaders to Africa. We had an amazing time learning about the ministry and all they are doing for kids in Africa. On our return we decided to stay on clomid for three more months and pray it will work. One month into it, we get a phone call from my mother's little sister (BBBS) who is now 20 and 6 months pregnant. She asked us out of the blue to be her babies parents. We were shocked but excited. We are still praying God will allow us to be this little babies parents.
This past November we celebrated our 2 year anniversary and had a wonderful time. That evening Scott wanted me to take a pregnancy test. I was five days late but I was nervous about ruining our anniversary if it came back negative. We took it and found out we were pregnant. It was our special gift from God. It was so sweet and special to find out but we were also scared we might have read it wrong. We took it again in the morning and sure enough positive again. I started getting signs of pregnancy. Took another test about three days before we were suppose to see our Dr. for an appointment. Positive!!! We went to the appointment and shared with the doctor we were planning on adopting. He assured us we would probably have a low chance of having twins. He jellied up my belly and as he stuck the sonagram on my tummy and instantly we saw two babies. WOW!!!! We looked at each other and we started laughing. The Doctor gave us some time to talk and laugh. We kissed and we were so excited to hear our loved ones have finally come. Oh we were so amazed. It was awesome! I feel overwhelmed with joy.
How am I feeling these days. Well besides all the symptoms......... I feel so grateful. Many ask us if we are overwhelmed. I just say to them. God is incontrol and we will do with what God has given us. We pray for all of our blessings and pray we can do what we can to love these babies and give the glory to God. He is the provider and finisher of our faith.

Anniversary Month!

Scott surprised me with staying home on our Anniversary. It was very sweet. He got up early as usual and went to get me fresh flowers and a card. We had a wonderful day filled with biscuits and gravy breakfast, olive garden for lunch, bought new plants, went to a history museum, took a nap and then went out to eat at Kobe Steak House. It was a wonderful day! I was so thankful he stayed home with me and we were able to just enjoy the day together.
Even though our celebrating date is Nov. 2nd we really weren't married until Jan 19th. If you didn't remember the story let me tell it again. We got married in Jamaica and it was amazing. When we got back we had to wait eight weeks to get our marriage certificate. When we got it, we were told at the DMV that they don't accept foreign marriages anymore in Kansas. So we had to go to the court house and then to church to have our pastor sign a paper. LOL... nice!
So thankful we are legal and we are happy. I love being married to this man. Let me tell you how amazing this man is everyday. He get up and works a hard laboring job. He comes home and usually starts on a home project sometimes after a nap. He has taken me to Colorado, Arkansas, NY, Africa, Louisiana and Kansas City. He took my father in our house for a month as he rehabilitated his hip. He encourages me with my gardening, lawn and house keeping. He keeps me laughing all the time. We talked about our fun times together in these past two years and it's been so fun. Never a day without a smile and an I Love YOU. When I see other couples, I just don't see another that can match us. I am sure others feel the same about there marriage. I am amazed at how much God loves us.

Shockwave Softball 18's

Well these are my sweet girls. We have been together for two seasons for some. this Summer and Fall. They have improved a ton and it's our hope we can continue to be a good influence in their lives. We have a great group of girls and it's exciting to spend the weekend with them. It was very cold but we survived. WE mostly played college teams this fall and stayed with them for the most part. It was great to allow the girls to be seen by so many college coaches. I hope and pray it pays off for them. Scott and I have had a great time with the families and girls. It's definitely putting us in the world to encourage and reach those who we come in contact with. I so love my husband is so supportive. He is great! I love him for everything.

K-State Football

This year would not be complete without going to a K-State Game. We love our Cats. Jeff invited us and this year I got to bring my friend Caroline. I loved going with them. WE had such a great road trip. Laughing and talking about boys and girls. Jeff is now in charge of finding Caroline's husband. We tried later that night at Red Robin but to no avail. K-State killed the team they played and so that meant lots of football touch down kisses. I love games like that.... my lips were tired after 46 points... lol..

Vacation Needed!

So Scott had some time to take off and we decided to take a trip to places we had never been before. We decided since our cousin had suggested coming to Arkansas we would look into it and during the fall we thought it would be very pretty. WE didn't get in touch with our cousin but we did get to visit Scott's Aunt and Uncle in Tulsa, His youth leaders in Little Rock, and the West/Lewis's in Monroe Louisanna. It was a great trip. Scott and I had fun driving around Eureka Springs and going through caves. Exploring the Arkansa land and we thought it was pretty amazing. We are such Colorado goo roo's so going somewhere else close was a little bit of a stretch but we loved it.
We were refreshed listening to Music and driving through nature. It was awesome. God really encouraged us and allowed us to be an encouragement to our friends. We were just going for a trip and we were rewarded with being a blessing to others. We were able to get a tour of Family Life. It was a very beautiful building and their work there was amazing. All the things they are doing in other countries is amazing. PTL.
I learned never to put God in a box and allow God to use you in everything and everywhere you go. I love the desire of my husband's heart even more. We had such a wonderful time and I really feel like he has softened my heart everyday. He is amazing.